Flipping through images in my iPhoto file (favorite thing about my Mac), I come upon images from birthday lunch for my 75th last August. I meant to blog on how it felt to be "feted" by a group of strangers.
Did I enjoy it? Absolutely. Were the people my age or older? It was a mix at my table, mostly women but more men than I'd expected. Must have been 100 there for lunch at the Lenox Hill Senior Center. Got that? The invitation to celebrate this landmark day (pictures here from the event) came about because I had joined the Center back in 1998. And never returned.
Backstory. Deep into kitchen composting as an art form, I'd applied for a small grant from the Puffin Foundation. The idea was to form a group of seniors into a Kitchen Compost Troupe. We'd celebrate the 2001 closing of Fresh Kills, home of the world's largest garbage dump on Staten Island. Each of us would have nurtured my patented invention, "WormWare," world's smallest kitchen composter.
Of the several ways I devised to gather such a group together, I visited Lenox Hill Senior Center. I spoke with a social worker about making a future presentation on "Composting in Manhattan." She suggested that I have lunch that day and get a measure of the participants. Readers, I joined a senior center.
That was a jolt. It was very personal--unlike teaching a class in Baltimore at an "Eating Together" program in my fifties--this was about me at 66. Not ready, too soon, I thought. The grant came through but my plan changed after writing a second grant. "This Dirt Museum: the Ladies' Room," was an interactive installation at Queens Botanical Garden in 2001.
I never returned to the Lenox Hill Senior Center. Well, they were all the way over on the east side of town where I rarely go except to museums. Their knitting group was not as, how would you say it, "up-to-date" as the ones I attended. The food was very institutional and I felt uncomfortable about it's small one dollar price. This was not me. At that moment, aside from reluctance to see myself as one of them, I hit the social class issue. Senior centers in many cities have been established for people with limited resources. In New York, their financial support comes from non-profits working with the aging and the City Council.
Fast forward to 2008. After all my years of neglect--I did carry the membership card in my wallet for years-- Lenox Hill was gracious enough--to send me an invite to their monthly Birthday Lunch. Had I been asked in other years (I forget much these days)? I decided to take them up on their offer.
I really enjoyed myself, Ron too but he's less critical than I. Several of my lunch companions were working seniors. One woman in public relations wanted to connect with my westside Democratic club because she said it seemed more active in the Obama campaign than her eastside group. She also thought knitting Condom Amulets was amusing and a smart way to promote safe; the actress sitting next to her agreed.
Having heard that there was a national a move to "update" senior centers. In New York City the Mayor had big plans to make them more "health-oriented" and reduce their funding. On the way out I spoke with the two social workers running the program. Things were not good they reported. In December, Mayor Bloomberg was resisted in his efforts, with strong opposition by our Council President, Christine Quinn. Elsewhere from Wellesley, Massachusetts to Los Angeles, California, it's evident that denial about aging takes many forms in addition to my own reluctance.
Ron and I will soon move into a continuing care retirement community in Portland, Oregon. Besides accepting it to myself, I have come out to anyone who will listen that it feels right to describe myself as "elderly." Yes, more attitude adjustments lie in ahead.
[This post in appreciation of two this week at TGB on aspects ageism and especially the comment by Tamar at Only Connect that followed the first post.]
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